What February held: worth & health.

If I were to tell you that you didn’t have to do a single thing to prove that you’re worthy of love, would you believe me? If you believe in Jesus you may know it’s true in your head, but does your heart believe it?

In all honesty, I’ve been learning to believe it myself for years. Everything about the world we grew up in is performance-oriented: job promotions, friendships, grades, etc. All too many times I’ve watched myself spiral into shame when I feel that I can’t contribute anything of significant value. Over the last month here at CGA, my focus has been on revealing the roots and realities of this mindset all over my life.

These past four weeks have felt more like four months as we dove into the way we function and compared it with the way we were designed to. The content covered is as follows:

• Read Spiritual Slavery to Spiritual Sonship by Jack Frost. This book called me OUT by describing the life and behavior of a child secure in his Father’s arms versus a striving orphan
• Discussed the father-like attributes of God and compared Him to our earthly fathers to diagnose lacking areas and invite the Lord to fill those places. We then processed the same with the mother-like attributes of God.
• Health: Spiritual, physical, emotional, relational, and mental.
• Read Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter Scazzero (HIGHLY recommend). This book debunked the false idea that to experience anger or anxiety is bad and explained how to process emotions in a healthy and beneficial way.
• A guest speaker taught on the spiritual realm and how to engage in spiritual warfare. This teaching was SO helpful to put words to realities I have experienced regarding the ordering God created this universe to function in.

This last month, I was faced with some brutal realizations about myself. Comfortability and familiarity are easy to choose. True, healthy community is hard to fight for. The subconscious idea that I have to bring something of value to the table to be loved has been revealed and therefore challenged time and time again. Most days I think about the comfort of life in Colorado with the people I love. While ignorance truly is bliss, I know (!!) that the difficult self reflection I am going through now is building me a tool belt to tackle roadblocks for both myself and others further down the road. Just six weeks in, and I am praising God in-between tears for His goodness that I can’t quite comprehend!

Ways you can support:

1. PRAYER! I need lots of it– for the strength to choose out of comfort, for the walls I’ve put up between myself and the Lord’s love to come crashing down, to be where my feet are and find reasons to celebrate it…. I could go on.
2. Finances! I am still fundraising to be here, and would greatly appreciate a donation so I can stay.

May you step into deeper levels of intimacy and vulnerability with God, and be better because of it!

Coryn