Let's Catch Up!!

If I had to sum up the last three weeks of training camp, one week of stateside ministry, and one week of debrief it would be chaotic, freeing, and eye opening. The Lord has opened my eyes to things that not only was happening around me but also things that were happening within me. So let me fill you in on everything that has been happening since the last update!! A little psa: this may be a little lengthy and some topics may come up that are seen as controversial in today's modern church, this is just what the Lord has been doing in my life so if something is brought up that you may not agree with I encourage you to just ask the Lord and sit with him on it!!

Training Camp: 

Coming into training camp was probably one of the hardest things that I have had to do yet. From coming into launch absolutely sick out of my mind to going through stuff and seeing stuff that I never thought I would ever see or ever go through. But in that I got the opportunity to see the Lord work in ways I would have never seen if he never called me back here.

• We got to hear some amazing sessions everyday for a couple of weeks and even though I have heard all these sessions once before the Lord had something for me in each one that I did not get a year ago. So the Lord is just so good to me in his timing.

• The sessions ranged from our 3 part talk on spiritual warfare, learning about the different cultures that we will encounter on the field and how to evangelize to them the right way, children’s ministry, learning about forgiveness and the Lord working so evidently through unforgiveness and stubbornness, and learning about the whole old testament in one 3 hour session from start to the end.

• Each Friday night we had revival worship nights and they were always absolutely amazing in ways I can’t even put into words but I am going to try. Our very first one was one night that I will remember for the rest of my life because that night the Holy Spirit came into the room and it was as if heaven and earth collided in that room for that night. It was unlike anything I have ever seen, the joy of the Lord was so evident and so contagious throughout the room, it was impossible to look around and not feel the Holy Spirit and immediately feel his joy. Two of our guys got absolutely hit with the spirit, Nick M got so much joy that he was running around telling literally anyone and everyone about it and Dom got hit so hard he was on the ground laughing for hours and that kept going even after revival night ended. 

• The Lord was not shy in showing up during our first weeks together and it was one of the sweetest seasons the Lord has shown me yet. Even as I look back on it I see nothing other than the Lord’s goodness and joy through it all, the good times and the not so good times.

Spiritual Warefare:

Before I go into this next section I want to say that what I am going to talk about is something the Lord has been telling me to share and stuff that has been happening to me personally. I know some people do not have the same views on this as I do and all I ask is that you ask the Lord for understanding while you continue reading further. There will be talk on demons, demonic oppressions, and deliverance; these are things that you should not be afraid of, I certainly am not, but they are very real and not something to be joking about or messing around with. This is not to glorify the demonic or give them more authority, this is to glorify the Lord and everything that he has freed me from and his kindness through this all.

• Coming back to training camp has been really hard on me spiritually and I have been under non-stop spiritual warfare/attacks since coming back on base camp. This would include waking up really sick on launch day and coming into it sick, getting a headache the second I stepped foot back on base, having shin splints when that has never been a problem for me before in my life, getting sick again after getting better from being sick previously, being so exhausted I could not focus, massive headaches whenever something containing the Lord happened or when I tried to read my bible, my skin burning when someone who was so filled with the Holy Spirit touched me, my eyes physically changing from my natural color to black for a couple weeks, and not being able to eat food towards the end of it.
• I had no clue that I was dealing with demonic oppression (which are not possessions-they are two completely different things! If you have questions please ask!!) until I was being physically affected and was not okay at all. The longer it went on the worse it got and the worse I got physically, these oppressions were starting to affect my physical health and well being. 
• With all of that happening to me and getting worse everyday I went and talked with my leaders and we decided that deliverance could be an option in the future but not right at this moment and to keep giving it to the Lord and seeing where that goes. And not even a week after that conversation it got almost 10x worse, we were sitting in a deliverance ministry breakout session and they were talking about the testing of spirits and one of the questions was "Is the Lord your savior?" and everything in me wanted to scream NO! My entire body went numb and I almost passed out in the middle of that talk and had a pretty bad headache for the rest of the day. I then went to my leaders cause cause that was anything but normal and we set up a time for the next day to have a little chat about it.
• That night I was not able to sleep no matter how tired I was, I did not get a minute of sleep so I went into that day with absolutely no energy and a massive headache. I sat down with my leaders and we asked the Lord for clarity and that turned into deliverance. After my deliverance I was able to hear the Lord speak to me so clearly, it was such a relief and a huge comfort. I immediately went to tell my team and before I could tell them they knew something was different, I looked lighter, radiating joy, and my eyes changed back to their natural color. I had that Jesus glow!

​​​​​​​The Lord has freed me from so much and I'm forever grateful and thankful to him for that. He is so extremely kind in his timing. I wish I could put into words how it feels to be free and to walk in his freedom. I am more in love with the Lord than I have ever been ! I never want to loose that!! (If you have any questions about my deliverance or spiritual warfare please ask! I am more than happy to answer them!!)

Ways you can be praying:

• ​​​​​​​We are currently in out first of 5 countries, Guatemala, and are doing ministry here for 5 more weeks! So prayers over our time here and that the Lord would move in miraculous ways!
• I am also still funding for my trip! I currently have $4,353.25 until I am fully funded!! If you feel led to partner with me my donation link is in my Instagram bio!
• I am also funding for living expenses for the remainder of my trip, the link for that is also in the linktree in my instagram bio!

The Lord is doing amazing things and I can't wait to see what's next and tell you guys about it!!! God bless y'all!