*STOP RIGHT THERE!!! Before proceeding, if you haven’t yet read my blog I Told God “NO,” go do that RIGHT now. The following blog is the conclusion to that blog, but to fully understand this one you’ll need to read what happened first. *
At the end of our time in Albania, my squad and I headed off to a Debrief in Belgrade, Serbia before we would begin our various ministries for month 7. I kept feeling God ask if I wanted healing from my allergies, and I continued to run from this conversation and only give Him a “no.” My heart began to be softened at Debrief when I felt God tell me that He couldn’t trust me with future plans that He had for me, until I could trust Him with my “yes.”
Side note... A question that we are frequently asked while on The Race is, “so, what’s next???” I had begun fervently praying into this in Month 5, but felt as if God told me I was distracted and needed to wait until at least Month 7 to look toward possible plans after the Race. As I started praying about the future once I made it to Month 7, God revealed that He needed my “yes.” It made complete sense to me though. Why should He trust me with what’s coming next, when I couldn’t trust Him with a free and beautiful gift that He was trying to give to me? My perspective flipped in that instant.
Once my team and I arrived in Novi Sad to begin month 7, I began pressing in and praying every single day for God to heal me from my allergies. I didn’t know how or when it would come, but He had promised me I would be healed and ALL His promises are “yes and amen!” I remember asking Him, “but God how will I know when I’m healed?” And I felt the most peace in my spirit as He said, “you’re just going to have totrust me.” I brought my team in on what was going on and asked for their prayers and opinions in the whole matter. “Guys how do you think I’llknow???” The answer I most frequently got was, “you’ll just know!” WHAT?!?!! I remember getting so frustrated during this time because I didn’t “just know,” and I figured it was going to have to be some crazy, overwhelming, elaborate, over-the-top thing that would slap me in the face to let me know I was healed. Sometimes God does work this way, but more often than not He is working the most in the little ways that go unnoticed. He’s not always in the wind that tears the mountains apart and breaks rocks into pieces. He’s not always in the earthquake. He’s not always in the roaring, raging fire. More often than not, He can be found in a whisper, a still, small voice (reference to 1 Kings 19: 11-12).
I opened my Bible one morning in April to begin my quiet time. I was reading Exodus at the time, and that day in particular I read Exodus chapter 14. I read up to verse 14 which reads, “The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.” I’ve heard and read this verse many times in my life, but there was just something different about it that day. My heart skipped a beat, my body got covered with chills, and I knew I was supposed to read it again. I read it again and it brought tears to my eyes. I read it a third time, began sobbing, and felt God asking me to sit still before Him. I closed my eyes, and stilled myself before my Father as He spoke to me. “Meagan you ARE healed. I wanted this to be somethingintimate between you and I alone. You were looking for something lavishand bringing others in, when all I was wanting from you was to sit at myfeet and listen to me tell you of the gift I had for you. You ARE healed. You ARE whole. You need only to trust me and rest in the gift I havegiven you.”
It wasn’t grand. It wasn’t audacious. And it wasn’t some huge spectacle that a million people got to witness. But, it was beautiful. It was intimate. And I witnessed healing from my Heavenly Father that changed my life forever. He healed my allergies in an instant, and He has healing for you as well. It may not be today, it may not be tomorrow, and it may not be in the way you’re expecting, but Your Heavenly Father loves and has every good and perfect thing for you. You need only to trust Him, and be still as He fights for you.
-Meagan
•PRAYER REQUESTS•
*Please continue praying on behalf of the country/people of Romania. The oppression is very heavy here, and the hurt and heartache are palpable. Pray that hearts, minds, and eyes would be open to the transforming grace of God’s good love.
*My parents will begin theit travels THIS WEEK to meet up with me here on the field in Romania. Pray for safe travels, energy and time to rest, and excitement for all that God is going to do!
*Please send me any prayer requests or praises that YOU have! I would love to be able to lift you up in prayer and celebrate with you in all that God is currently doing in your life!!
